This whole Penn State scandal has me sickened. Why would these people who are so on top of their game do something so vile and violent against children, many of who were "at risk" children. Are these sick urges so strong that they would risk falling from the highest place they can be and with no regard for anyone, single handedly ruining these children's lives. Was coaching one of the most popular college football teams in America not enough of a thrill for them? Didn't they get their fill of violence from the game? And the cover ups, are these men so loyal to each other that they would sacrifice the life and trust of young boys who are considered high risk? The whole thing makes me lose faith in all that is good. The spirit of teamwork, the adolation of fans everywhere, and still it wasn't enough. The whole mess brings me to a subject that has been brought up to me quite a bit in the last few months. That subject is residential care for my son, so that I could have some sort of life and so the state could make money from him. Now if I hand Zach over to the state, he will be eligible for all sorts of things. Food stamps, clothing allowances, recreation, and a place to live independently from me. If I keep him home, basically I am on my own. Is there something wrong with this picture? Why does this country value splitting up families? Call me cynical but if anyone thinks I am going to turn my precious son over to some strangers who are getting paid to care for him in light of all of the abuse and maltreatment I have seen just in the past two months, they have another thing coming. Kids like Zach who are nonverbal and so gentle in their disposition are the country's MOST VULNERABLE aside from the elderly who can't care for themselves. What would make someone so arrogant as to think that I wanted to dump him off like a bag of old clothes that are going to Good Will. I was given a job to do in this lifetime and that is to love and care for a child who is not able to do so himself. Is this job difficult? You better believe it. Do I doubt myself? All the time. Would I trade him in for anything in the world? HELL NO. He is my boy and I decide what is best for him, I tuck him in every night, I decide when he needs to be disciplined, not the state. You can call me cynical and maybe I am, but all I want is a little help to maintain him to stay home with me. My trust level for well meaning people is fine, as long as I am the filter that stands between them and my child. I would never put my son in harms way. I refuse to take the chance. People are basically good, but is it worth it to me to find the one bad apple in the bunch? I have been put on this earth to protect that boy and that is what I am going to do and I am going to do it until I take my last breath. I have Ronnie and my parents, my brother, my aunts, uncles, nieces and friends. We are the professionals, and we will make the decisions about him. Thank you very much!